i don't think you will ever understand how much you hurt me.
i have never experienced putting my complete trust into somebody and then finding out that everything they had said was a lie. i have never been so humiliated in all of my life. it is because of you that i cannot trust people as much. you have shattered my innocence, my naivity. and maybe i needed to learn that, but god, did i learn it the hard way. and yes i tried to forgive you, and i nearly did. but i will never trust someone the same again, and i will always have the ache that you caused. you say you were scared then, well i'm scared now. scared to feel, scared to believe, scared to hurt. i avoid vulnerability like it has the plague. and what's worse is that after everything, i cannot seem to let go of the friendship, i don't want to let go of the friendship. but i will always be guarded, i will not be that hurt again.
fool me once, shame on you. fool me twice, shame on me.