head in the sand

if i don't think about you, then i'm okay. i am fine when i put you out of my mind, and just live my life. it'll be alright, just don't. think. about. it. i need to be stronger than i am right now, i need to get through this and move on. and i'm scared to let you go. i want what we had, not what we are. nostalgia is burning through my mind like a fuel-induced flame. i need to put out the fire, sweep up the ashes, and then, if that ever happens. i will be okay.